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*write, write, write* *auuugh writers block*

...be a good brain and do what I want, yeh? Stop forgetting all the dialogue you just came up with.

(Note: But if you start writing something like this ("OMG FURSECUTION") I may be forced to trade in for BrainDOS 2.1)

( brrrraaaaiiins.... *cough* brainscribbles )

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I have just paid my 2006 membership fees for the RPSGB.

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*sob*

£267 (Current exchange rate makes that $469.56 for all you USians) And for a job that really gets to me some days - I could never be a nurse. I mean, here's an example - I work in a hospital, and spend about an hour and a half every day on "my" ward, which is a care of the elderly ward. A large number of patients are quite batty, and occasionally head off on their walking frames and you have to collar them at the doors before they're off across the car park, and a lot have fallen over and just come in while they recover. A lot are very ill, though - they have Parkinson's or cancer or Huntington's chorea or infections or... and I mean they're usually badly ill. Over the past couple of weeks I've come in to see the death certificate book out on the ward, tucked into someone's notes, and it does get at you - especially when you glance into their notes and see "Pupils fixed, patient unresponsive. Death certified 03:17 hours. May your soul rest in peace" on the last page. And it's funny what sticks in your mind, too - there was a gent on my ward who was waiting to go home (to his son's) over the new year period, but couldn't go to his son's home because the heating had broken down, so the ward were trying to arrange a temporary nursing home place for him. They'd got the place sorted, and he was really looking forwards to actually GOING, and got dressed in record time, got his coat and hat and scarf and walking frame and suitcase all ready and... the nursing home phoned back and said they wouldn't take him after all (I guess it was "too much hassle" for them at new year. *grumble* ). So he just sat on his bed, sobbing (then he had a hypo. :\ He finally left yesterday). And that made ME feel like crying - I mean, he's an inoffensive, quiet 80-something gent, I could understand it if they didn't want to take one of the noisy, "manipulating" old women who just sit there and cry "help me... oh please help me..." when there's nothing wrong with them. Now, see, that's why I couldn't be a nurse. Okay, I'm going to shut up before I get all teary again. :P

Still, now you see why I have no money. :P

Now I'm going to go off and format some story notes, so I can put them up on my forum, just for the interest factor - since at the rate I'm going most will NEVER see light of day. :(

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Now, see, THIS is part of the reason I don't consider my fiction to be "furry", and part of the reason I'm hesitant to associate myself WITH furry. (Saw it on the new art page on VCL and later on VCL Horrors).
http://us-p.vclart.net/vcl/Artists/TraumaFox/Mature/tezareth_refsheet.gif
Now, I don't consider it a HORROR, per se - it's pretty blah to be honest - but it's the fact there's so many things like this gets on my nerves. Partly, it's the whole "yeah, I'm, like, some noble, mystical reincarnated spirit of a powerful, agile, peaceful Anubis lookalike and I just LUUUURVE watersports (and I don't mean like water polo)." And partly, it's the whole "Yeah, liek, this is my new species, and, liek, they're all cool and mystical and noble (and they only look like fox-cat-bunnies because that's a coincidence), and they have this liek fantastic considerate society, and they only happen to talk like American emo-teens and bitch and whine and fuck all the time because IT'S A BIG COINCIDENCE, you know?" (best said in a bored middle-school teenager voice).

(Mind you, this is the other reason - furry has such a load of WANKERS in it when it comes to art. "In my spare time, I like to write how to draw books. I only have one for sale now, but I plan on making more soon!" Guess the author of the quote! I am seriously tempted to actually BUY one while the pound is so strong and it'd be cheap to do so, just to see how full of scanner-spots and comic sans and bad anatomy it is, and so everyone else can beware of it, but then that'd just encourage her to do more, right?)
Plus: http://us-p.vclart.net/vcl/Artists/Ulario-Aira-Zemothe/Alien%20Species/Jhi%27Mar%27Oog/jhimaroog-height.jpg
Somebody HAS to learn how to use a ruler. Plus, some of them look spookily like my Ondrai. :P

"Stargazer"

Yeah, I get on a posting spree every now and then. Some story notes; Ral and Ivy. Ivy thought they had the potential to be so good together, and it all went so... wrong... :P

Ral got his name from rearranging a few letters in the name of an oooold character I used to use, but whereas that character was more of a renegade than a bad guy, Ral *IS* bad. Incidentally, this is why Ivy isn't the sort of person to celebrate her true nature.

http://s7.invisionfree.com/windchaser/index.php?showtopic=46

Psychological training, or something...?
(You need a user-name to view the topic, but they're easy enough to get - I just prefer to know who's reading/has the potential to read my writing, just in case the ideas crop up in other places. Members can read, comment and start topics, Joe Lurker/casual visitors can't. Although if enough people whine, I'll put it on LJ instead.)